Love to Hate you - Part 1

As you all know ...after a disastrous ending of my previous relationship... I nearly stood nowhere but after LuckByChance saga ended I was like why am I unhappy or sad for LuckByChance she was leading a happy life and I decided to move on...

Well Love To Hate you series is a real life story about me and the next girl who came into my life ..Lets name her "Soul"...

When I first saw "Soul" I met her at my previous work place ..she was complete of question mark on her face ...But she was beautiful matter of fact there was no one else who were that beautiful..
Anyways ..she was quite and didn't interact much with anyone... But dude its me ..the Sultan so I took the opportunity and hit a conversation with her... guess what she turned out to be complete dud.. No emotions nothing ..anyways I tried to have few conversation with her..for few week ..but we never really hit it of...

But I got her number ...and started to sms her and later called her few times ..Well than something happened and I left the job...before leaving I had built quite a reputation at my work place and later "Soul" and I were in touch ..

Well this was the start of a Unconditional relationship ....

Keep track ...this is gonna get sad

The Story that started on 19th January 2009 is on the verge of end ... I lost more than I achieved But I learned a lesson that is much more valuable than anything ever I achieved.

Thanks for everything, I am sorry for things I did intentionally and unintentionally.

This is not my end this is the end that part of my life which I believe to archive in my Elphinstone Memories section.

Everybody have moved on ... and Its time for me to move on.

Thank you folks... Keep track for my next story the "The Ace of Spades" A Prediction of my journey to the top....

So on folks ...

Kurt Kobain Sucide Note

To Boddah

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement [sic] of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things.
For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury[sic], who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man! Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.
I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar.
Please keep going Courtney
for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU

New Lease - LuckByChance Aftermath

Well where are everybody from the LuckByChance Saga...

1. Mr PB - I don't have the exact update but he is working for a firm in Charni Road as a Data Entry Operator

2. Mr Prince of Orrisa is working in a firm in Churchgate

3. Mr Extreme is doing his Master in Information Technology

4. Rest Small time characters are working and studying

LuckByChance is working she has moved into her dream home she waited for almost a year for it she is happy with her job we are in touch and speak once a while (Finally mobile bill in control).

But we frequently sms each other...

This is not the end...Journey will continue

You folks might be thinking where am I ...

I am doing my CCNA Cisco Certified Network Associate and also Working on a Project with Google.

Have lost considerable amount of weight...

But I still have the love for LuckByChance inside me

Leave The Memories Alone...

Things changed .. from good..to bad..to worst. I did every possible thing to have her. But now I feel wasted. She doesn't even recognize me anymore. Why what did I do anything wrong. Now am down ..somewhere below where the sun don't shine trying to find my self.

LuckByChance she has moved on leaving me deserted and all alone once again. Lost my friends, failed to graduate and life have hit the brakes.

Don't know why she doesn't care for what I did for her. Can love be so mean?
I lost a fortune for her. My love has started to fade now which I didn't wanted too. I force self realize that she wasn't the girl who I wanted to walk with me ....

I am listening to this song by Linkin Park

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

But as it is always been told raise from the ashes. I promise that I would and she would regret leaving me alone.

I will raise......

LuckByChance Saga - "Missing Her"

Its been long real long. I haven't seen her and I am really not able to cope up with my studies. Well My university exams were bad real bad and I think I would not graduate this June.

Same thing with LuckByChance but I hope she clears all her subject. She isn't feeling well since last 4 days am really worried for her.

Last night I called and she didn't reply back. Well I though when you don't see or speak with the person you are in love. I am feeling real low again. I don't understand what should I do so she starts loving me. I may sound maniac sick but that's the fact I mean I feel she is the girl I was looking for so long.

There was a time when every hot girl use to turn me on. But now I don't feel the same because I have changed a lot I tried going back to old myself but I think I and lost him somewhere very far behind.

LuckByChance I really love her to the greatest extent of what you say is "Love" and I don't know whats there for me in future and thats was causing me to only leave in present.

God please ....

"So Far Away" by Staind

This is my life
its not what it was before
all these feelings I've shared
and these are my dreams
that I'd never lived before
somebody shake me
cuz i
i must be sleeping

now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
all in the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and I'm not ashamed to be the person that i am today

these are my words
that I've never said before
i think I'm doing okay
and this is the smile
that I've never shown before

somebody shake me cuz i
i must be sleeping

I'm so afraid of waking
please don't shake me
afraid of waking
please don't shake me