LuckByChance Saga - "Missing Her"

Its been long real long. I haven't seen her and I am really not able to cope up with my studies. Well My university exams were bad real bad and I think I would not graduate this June.

Same thing with LuckByChance but I hope she clears all her subject. She isn't feeling well since last 4 days am really worried for her.

Last night I called and she didn't reply back. Well I though when you don't see or speak with the person you are in love. I am feeling real low again. I don't understand what should I do so she starts loving me. I may sound maniac sick but that's the fact I mean I feel she is the girl I was looking for so long.

There was a time when every hot girl use to turn me on. But now I don't feel the same because I have changed a lot I tried going back to old myself but I think I and lost him somewhere very far behind.

LuckByChance I really love her to the greatest extent of what you say is "Love" and I don't know whats there for me in future and thats was causing me to only leave in present.

God please ....

"So Far Away" by Staind

This is my life
its not what it was before
all these feelings I've shared
and these are my dreams
that I'd never lived before
somebody shake me
cuz i
i must be sleeping

now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
all in the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and I'm not ashamed to be the person that i am today

these are my words
that I've never said before
i think I'm doing okay
and this is the smile
that I've never shown before

somebody shake me cuz i
i must be sleeping

I'm so afraid of waking
please don't shake me
afraid of waking
please don't shake me

LuckByChance saga - The Fact or Fiction

This is real weird stuff .On Saturday 6th of April I had gone to college to sign my Exam Hall Ticket..LuckByChance and me chatted for a while ..but due to a friend Suraj who had come to college after a recovering from accident had to spend time with him.. I told LuckByChance to wait ....well she asked me to come fast..

Well after hanging around with suraj ..I came to college ..while I was at the gate ..LuckByChance came out with Mr Prince of Orissa and his pals .. Well I didn't feel anything wrong as Mr Prince of Orissa and his pal were old friends of LuckByChance.

I didn't ask her where she was going just asked ..when will she comeback...But due to time constraint I was also not able to wait much longer.

But we caught up at a point ..I asked her to give me call when she would catch her train back home.

Well So while going back home she called ..well the conversation started with the usual stuff about studies and college.

Well then later she told me about her depleting saving ..I told her to give the money to me and so I can save it for her. Later I told her that after exam she, me and Mr Extreme would go for shopping at Bandra. She said the she wanted Mr PB ( my former friend) to join as well

Well now the interesting stuff starts ..she asked me why do I hate Mr PB so much as he and me were good friend. I said "As if you don't know"..

Well she told that the reason for my and Mr PB's friendship gone soar was her ..actually she asked PB to act as her Boy Friend so I can get over her ..Because she feels that my and her relationship wasn't meant to happen ...and had no future ...

And what ever Mr PB did was all on her orders ...But But But ..I due time ..Mr PB and LuckByChance started to like each other (Am I sick).

Now ..my Brain had a major "TILT" I mean ..whatever she said is it Fact or is it Fiction ...because there are so many loop holes ...

Also if its fact then Mr PB need to get Oscar for best actor and LuckByChance for best script ...

but on other side ... It's not possible for me to get over LuckByChance ..because I love her more than anyone on this planet and I really don't know why ?

Keep track peeps ...god knows where am I heading

LuckByChance Saga - "Mr Prince of Orissa" the Truth

I still don't know ..is it love or friendship ...that make me comfortable with "LuckByChance" but its feels good to be with her talk to her ...We met accidentally well ..there was this guy "Mr Prince of Orissa" who was infatuated with her .."I really don't know the truth yet" But he was like crazy ..over possessive and kinda person ...

Well certainly if he wouldn't have acted funny he and her would have been a great couples ..but you know ..the whats gonna happen ..will happen ...

So this guy was over possessive ..weird behaving led "LuckByChance" to maintain a safe distance... so god knows ..what struck him he asked for help from me .. I mean he and me and completely different people.

So I called her up ..asked her what was the problem ...and asked "Mr Prince of Orissa" his side of story ...then I came to conclusion ..that "Mr Prince of Orissa" ain't a prince he is a douchebag ...I mean I always believe that when you love someone you need to give them their space too ..

But the "Mr Prince" was big time jerky ... he asked boy from our class not to talk to her ...which made her feel offensive.. and caused more crack in their relationship.

Finally I stepped in as negotiate ..well I did my best convincing her that ...Mr Prince was a nice guy ..he is away from his family which led him to his over possessive behaviour.

Well I did my level best ..finally I brought them face to face ..now well there you see things got out of hand here ..Mr Prince had hidden so many stuff from me ..that ...I really left dumb struck ..when "LuckByChance" ripped him apart.

Well after that .. "Mr Prince" blamed me .. that's when I had a shoot up ...

After that ..I am Mr Prince weren't talking terms ...end of story ...

But Mr Prince if you read this ... I would like to say ..one thing

I ain't that good ..nor that Bad

LuckByChance Saga - "No Answer"

Well I have been calling "LuckByChance" since last two days ...she didn't even bother to pick up my call or reply back with a SMS or anything ...actually I was calling her to give my new cell number.
There were days ..when she use to give me a miscall and we used to talk ..till my mobile balance would get over ...gone were the days now ...I really miss her every second ..but she ..really don't care for me anymore ..

What did I do wrong confessing ..to someone that you love her is a crime ..or what I mean ..I did every possible thing help her in everything ..from her project to her assignment ...

You ask me to be the same forever ..but she has changed so much I mean ...I feel I don't exist for her anymore...

Sometimes I feel to leave all and go in exile ..but that would not effect her but me ,my friends and family ...

"Love sees no religion ..no caste ...Love is unconditional"

I will still wait for her ...

Keep tracks peeps

Day 3 - Trying Hard Now

Well sorry was extremely busy yesterday so couldn't update ...
As usual got up at 5 went for a jog ..ran 5 Laps

Did bit of ab crunches

well the temperature in Bombay (mumbai) is soaring at 40°C and is extremely hot due to which one get tired fast ..but drinking lots of water helps you maintain your body temperature to normal.

Diet

Morning had White bread with cheese spread and Tea

Afternoon had lots of Fig (anjeer)

evening had cheese sandwich

Night 2 Indian Bread (Roti) and curry

well the overall calorie consumption is very low

Hoping to get good results as my body starts getting use to the working regime and gradually will increase the pace and strength

LuckByChance Saga - Don't know why?

Well it was strange ...I had previously gone out with many girls ...made out with few as well but ..This girl "LuckByChance" is the only girl who cracked my hard heart.

I mean for me girls were like pleasure stuff and I believed that there was nothing like love ..I remember saying that Love starts from heart and Ends between your legs.

But in case of "LuckByChance" I don't know why I get completely floored. I stopped using foul language, fooling around,attend college regularly, started to listening to Romantic HINDI songs (waste of time), even started watching her favorite television show so I can like discuss with her about the show,Big big chance I stopped having junk food.

Also before I met "LuckByChance" my monthly phone bill was Rs 100 (USD 2$) or even less now its around Rs 500 (USD 10$) also my dad and mom cut my Pocket money to almost half that is Rs 750 (USD 15$) per month. But I had do small jobs so i can take "LuckByChance" out on lunch and for sandwhich stuff ...Even had to sometimes pay her mobile bill.

I read somewhere that when you love someone or want someone to be yours from bottom of your heart the powers in universe come together to fulfill your wish.
If thats true I still can hope every morning that "LuckByChance" will love me.

Ok peeps keep track